You will never know. What you are capable of. Until you try.
That’s such an old saying, I am sure you heard it too several thousand times from adults (when you were a child and you didn’t want to taste something because it simply did not look good), or even you telling yourself as an adult by now, when you were challenged to leave your well known cosy comfort zone.
But as it always (always… yes, always) happens in life, sooner or later you will not only be challenged but pushed, dragged along a path you’d never chose if you are in your right mind. And still, you find yourself there, and it depends on you, and on no one else, what you get out of it.
And actually, whatever small triumph you made today (or that day), which you didn’t know you can do until now, should make you feel like winning a battle. A battle “against” an old, comfy self that believes that all is already set, and you have nothing left to do or learn in your precious life. Well… what you don’t know, you don’t know, right? You can’t possibly know it until you discover that you actually know it. That you can.
Whatever tiny thing it is, allow yourself to feel that momentarily heartwarming feeling of victory: of having acquired, having discovered a new skill.
For example, the moving we were doing actively in the past week – and passively since May, I guess – made me discover that I do can drill. Holes in the bookshelf. Fix things. Which would have never occurred to me if we haven’t moved. So actually, I am proud of myself. I have done so many things in the last week, passing a slight concussion caused by a stupid and at the end funny house accident with my partner, that all I can do is giving a literal standing ovation for myself in my inner space with the biggest ever hug I can offer to myself. And shoulder strap I feel I deeply deserve.
Extreme situations are most of the times reminding us that we may not end, and may not begin where we think we do. That’s change at its best! Passing through the storm of frustration and anger for the world which is seemingly falling apart, there is always a blue sky and some extraordinary new things which we could have never imagined would wait for us, would happen to us.
Go ahead, my dear, there is nothing to lose. Be ready to let go whatever and whoever you believe you are. Whoever you think you are is not a determined, finished thing, it’s an artwork in progress. And it well can happen, that with your next move, with your next I will… I can… you will leap. And you will surprise yourself. And then, just offer yourself a kind and proud hug, because you did it, and you can. Welcome, explorer, in the greatest expedition of your life!
P.S: Can you drill??? 😀